The last station for the Shit train
Erm...what i mean by the title ma...means i felt like i don't have the right to get angry or complain about anything in my house...because...well, i'm not sick, whenever shit happens it had to end by/at me.
Maybe it's just frustration or my worries for my dad, and my personal life, try very very hard to divide them, so that my mood won't be affected by my personal issues whenever i talk/deal with my dad.
If Yoda sees me, most probably he'll said, "Mmmmm, a shit load of negative energy i sense, in you, mmmmmm."
Enough to power up a space project, enough to um....uh...what i mean is it's very very...a lot.
Been doing lot's of things that i don't want to, or not happy to do those things, been thinking of leaving this place, go to somewhere else, been thinking about the past, been thinking about 'what if'... god damn, kinda look like i'm avoiding the reality, avoiding my problems, uh, or i should say there's no problem at all, that's what the Positive/energetic/cheerful side of me told me.
Usually i won't type this sort of things in my blog, well, why? caussssse-ah... people alwyas think that i have no problem haha, mmm, no, afraid to let people know, i would say, not anymore? nope, i still mind, it's just that i have to let it out this time.
Feeling lot's of pressure lately, fuh!... also discover some very interesting insights...which made me think about what i believe in...felt like i'm so childish at times...
It's been a long time...since, since uh...the last time i felt proud about myself, so lost, so lost...(i think there're some grammar mistake here)
Aiyo...
Erm...what i mean by the title ma...means i felt like i don't have the right to get angry or complain about anything in my house...because...well, i'm not sick, whenever shit happens it had to end by/at me.
Maybe it's just frustration or my worries for my dad, and my personal life, try very very hard to divide them, so that my mood won't be affected by my personal issues whenever i talk/deal with my dad.
If Yoda sees me, most probably he'll said, "Mmmmm, a shit load of negative energy i sense, in you, mmmmmm."
Enough to power up a space project, enough to um....uh...what i mean is it's very very...a lot.
Been doing lot's of things that i don't want to, or not happy to do those things, been thinking of leaving this place, go to somewhere else, been thinking about the past, been thinking about 'what if'... god damn, kinda look like i'm avoiding the reality, avoiding my problems, uh, or i should say there's no problem at all, that's what the Positive/energetic/cheerful side of me told me.
Usually i won't type this sort of things in my blog, well, why? caussssse-ah... people alwyas think that i have no problem haha, mmm, no, afraid to let people know, i would say, not anymore? nope, i still mind, it's just that i have to let it out this time.
Feeling lot's of pressure lately, fuh!... also discover some very interesting insights...which made me think about what i believe in...felt like i'm so childish at times...
It's been a long time...since, since uh...the last time i felt proud about myself, so lost, so lost...(i think there're some grammar mistake here)
Aiyo...
posted by tuck at 9:00 AM
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